i am strong.
i am stronger than i think or know.
that is what she said.
that is what she prayed.
that is what she spoke over me.
she is not the only one.
and i see myself as weak. so weak.
a mouse not a lion.
and i see everything around me as so impossible.
this all feels impossible.
it feels like crap.
like i am knee deep in defacation.
gosh, what a horrible image.
wandering wandering.
circling about.
familiar sounds.
steady now.
truth ignored.
strange alien foreign.
shut up.
go away.
turning.
indulge.
war. waging it.
against
myself.
against
you.
against
the world.
fight fight fight.
not what i want.
hate truth.
conflicting realities.
struggle.
mess.
winding paths.
our writhing hearts: the wailing dark.
1 comment:
Oh Stace, forgive me is this is too bold to say, but sometimes your blogs move me to tears - because I can (albeit awkwardly) identify to them. :)
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