that sort of intimacy.

"[...]that i may know him, and the power of his resurrection,

and the fellowship of his sufferings [...]"

phillipians 3:10

He is the Eternal Lover. and i want to be all there when He initiates relationship with me. but there is a battleground behind my eyes where thoughts impetuously rush towards each other and collide. there is no rest, only an ache - faint, yet persistent - for Him to arrest my attention. to, quite literally, grab me by the chin and turn my face towards His. to, like the words of a hymn: "look full in His wonderful face". i don't think i'd be able to handle that sort of intimacy. i want to. i want to be satisfied with wonder and delight for my King. seized by His unyielding love once and for all.