these streets are too close.
the freeway. the parks. the stores.
i feel trapped by memories.
i want a life that has no reminders.
about anything i experienced prior to this past may.
and the moments of foolishness between then and now.
i want to forget forget forget the people and places.
and the pain they brought me.
the insecurity they engrained in me.
right now i do not care for the good things anymore.
they are overshadowed by the hurt.
what good is remembering when all i see and feel and experience now is aching?
what good is remembering when it leaves me so disorientated?
i can choose to not dwell on things.
and i have been. and will continue to.
i can choose to stay away from things and sources that will remind me.
but a familiar area will always be familiar area.
yes, i want to move away, need to, desperately.
1 comment:
this resonates. surprisingly, moving doesn't help as much as you may think. just brings a differenet perspective to the ache...wish i could offer a better alternative, but i can say i understand.
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